WELL, THE SECRET IS OUT

"Next to eternal life, the most precious gift that our Father in Heaven can bestow upon man is his children." 
- David O. McKay

So I am usually open about everything, but when it came to the decision about this, I wanted to keep it between Nathan and I. I didn't want the judgement or the screenshots of my news in someone else's group chat. (Lol at the awkward people reading this who actually sent the screenshots in their chat) Buuuut I thought why hide something amazing as this? I'm about to explain everything for the people who think those mums or mums-to-be right now are too young at this age. 

If you make it to the end of this post you deserve a medal, it's a long one. But you do get to watch the big reveal video so.....

"Let's wait a year or two"

That's what Nathan and I said when we first got married. We wanted to make sure we were 100% ready, financially (because there's no free health care over here, dang), emotionally and mentally. Bringing a child into the world is such a huge responsibility. Their life is literally in your hands.

But let's be honest nothing can make you ready for those responsibilities.

I was on the implanon contraception and it was doing crazy things to me. I was super emotional and just absolutely cray.

I knew it was time to get that thing out of me when:

 1. We stopped at a red light and I was crying at the way the man in the car next to us freaking BLINKED. 

2. It was thunder and lightening and the lightening was like nothing I'd seen before, it suddenly reminded me of when everyone was attacking hogwarts when it had that big protection bubble thing. 

So yeah, we got Satan out of my arm.

We started thinking of other options then thought why?

We knew what we wanted, just not how soon we wanted it. But after lots of prayer, thinking and some sacred experiences, we knew it was time.

Then on April 14th I woke up feeling like I had to take a test. 

So I did...

The anticipation was killing me, something told me this is actually it, you're pregnant. But I really did not want to walk back through there and see not pregnant on that tiny screen.

I seen from afar that it had stopped loading, so I walked through and almost had a mini heart attack. I started thinking oh shoot my life is over, it's about to change big time, there's no going back now. But I just kept thanking my Heavenly Father for this wonderful gift he is trusting us with.

When I started seeing pregnancy announcements on facebook of people I knew I was pretty shook, not gonna lie guys. Everyone's popping one out like vending machines. But I realised that we are actually a lot older than we realise. At my age my Mum had already had me by now... But I found myself in that short few minutes judging that person. But I remembered my own thoughts and feelings, that I knew nathan and I were ready and only we could be the judges of that. 

We told my family through a video that we made for them to watch and before I even got them to watch it my Mum said you're pregnant. So I guess what was motherly/grandmotherly instinct kicking in.  (She thinks she's too young to be a granny because she tells everyone she's 21 and thinks it's STILL hilarious decades later, but really when she tells people, me and my sisters just cringe so hard and want to abandon her)

We told Nathan's family by playing the game 'Speak Out' (The one you put the huge plastic thing in your mouth and say sentences from cards but it shows every single tooth in your mouth so you sit there thinking I better not have something in my teeth. Yeah that one) I deliberately went on Nathan's parents team and went last. I pretended that my card said prepare to have another grandbaby. Bare in mind, when I play this game with Americans, it's impossible because of my accent. So you don't want me on your team, we'll be going down faster than the Titanic. But they actually managed to get it, well his mum did. His Dad thought I was saying prepare to have another cavity. (I know, not similar at all until you say both in an American accent)

ANYWAYS
I've decided to do bump updates every so often on my blog. (I know, look at me, becoming one of those utah mum bloggers, EUGH I promise I wont). We are both super happy, excited and scared to become parents. I have no doubt in the entire world that Nathan will be the greatest dad like he is the greatest husband. And I certainly am most excited to bring the little one home to Scotland. 

So here's this weeks update, then be sure to watch the video below!

Jo, x

How far along? 8 weeks.
How big is the baby? size of a raspberry.
Total weight gain/loss? none so far, yaaay!
Maternity clothes? none so far either, but I would love a pair of maternity leggings.
Sleep? I sleep really well, but get up to pee a lot and trust me that things like a waterfall.
Best moment this week? Seeing our little one in the first ultrasound!
Symptoms? Nausea in the morning, bloating, peeing a lot, hungry 24/7 and I get tired doing the smallest of jobs.
Food cravings? Burgers or anything bad for me and strawberry lemonade!
Food aversions? For a while it was just anything I had made, but now it's just anything garlicky, which sucks bc garlic makes everything better.
What I'm looking forward to? The bump growing!
Bump? Veeery tiny bump, I don't realise until I put on a tight dress, try to suck my belly in then it's still there...